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nt

Im not really sure what I’m hoping to get from joining but think im hoping to find that how I’m feeling after 4 years is somewhat “normal!” I’m still struggling with how I feel emotionally after my treatment and it feels that no one in the medical profession knows quite what to do with me now! I have read some of the stories here and it’s refreshing to read that there are people who have felt the same after a number of years from their diagnosis and treatment. There really needs to be more help after, I don’t really know how to help myself despite having had counselling and now on anti depressants again. I find it difficult to embrace the words “a different me” “a new me” I was happy with the old me before cancer decided to come and invade my body. And my mind. 

SarahS

Hi nt!

I know lots of others will feel just like you, I certainly do. I think it's best to share how you're feeling with others that understand - and that is a great way of making yourself feel ok with who you are now. 

Did you go to any support groups while going through treatment? I went to one locally to me but I stopped going after treatment. It was great to find Mission remission. From what I've read of others stories, things do get better and I can't wait for that xx

 

nt

Hi SarahS

Thank you for your reply.,I only attended counselling about 3 months after my treatment had finished and I have been back several times after having had a number of sessions. I too am hopeful that I won’t be stuck forever. X

LindaH

Hi nt l have just had 12 month check all is good but it is strange that that it doesn't really help. I too am on antidepressants and l do feel calmer. I love this site because no matter how you feel you know you are not alone. We have to embrace every day. Xx

VeriteVR

It might help (or might not) to know that I was speaking to another cancer survivor and he told me that long term side effects have lasted 15 years.   He says body adapts, he has learnt new tricks, and forums (forii - which is better grammar? !!) can help enormously.  It's nice to know one is not alone, and neither are we being wimps! 

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Grear

Hi feel exactly the same post cancer 2 years and got my scan results in Dec which I as usual feel paralysed about it really impacts on my work mood relationships  and being a mum at this time every year since going through the scan and I overanalyse everything for example got this scan appointment in the 12 nov and now  to see consultant 5 weeks after scan  in Dec whereas last year I had to wait longer and now I thinking it’s really something sinister -  it hard to lift my head the now . Sorry for such a needy post .

 

 

SarahS

Hi Grear, That's not needy at all!! We all feel scared before and after scans, it is totally normal. Hopefully the fact that the scan is in a different month doesn't mean anything! Perhaps they have less staff on in December? When is your consultant appointment? xx

Grear

Hi Sarah S it’s 18 Dec seems so long away ? I am thinking of calling my gp to see what’s what as I am emotionally exhausted with it all ? thanks for responding means a lot ! Hope you are well yourself ! 

nt

Hi Grear

something we should all try and learn is to be kinder to ourselves about how we feel. Never apologise for the thoughts and feelings you have we are all entitled to feel them and have them. If you are struggling with the wait then I would contact your consultant and ask if there’s anyway it can be brought forward. I have my next check in January and it is already playing on my mind.  I completely understand how you feel xx

Grear

Hi nt 

I might actually do that re consultant and  I arranged a call from gp also next week as I am emotionally exhausted ? thanks for your response and I am going to be kinder to myself as I am far too hard on myself ?‍♀️ Hope you ok re your jan scan ?‍♀️ Xx

Grear

Hi nt 

I might actually do that re consultant and  I arranged a call from gp also next week as I am emotionally exhausted ? thanks for your response and I am going to be kinder to myself as I am far too hard on myself ?‍♀️ Hope you ok re your jan scan ?‍♀️ Xx

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